Monday, September 26, 2005
wasted youth
after that bit about outwars and a little chat with my friend I've become slightly depressed about the fact that I've wasted about 4 full years worth of my life on the computer. 3-3.5 years has been wasted on video games and bullshit. I look back on it all now and it is so depressing and I know that there is nothing I can do about it. I can't go back and change time to create a better childhood that doesn't consist of avid computer/video game use. here is a priceless quote from my good friend lonny:
what can I do now? can I leave the computer world forever and say that I only wasted a bit of my life on here, I can get past this and enjoy the rest of my life, don't come on the computer as much but don't just throw away the 4-5 years you've put into it already or don't change at all and hope that I can be happy with the life that I've chosen in the end?
I don't know what I will choose in the end but this is something I definatly need to think about because it is really upsetting me thinking of all this time I've wasted I could have been doing bigger and better things. anyways it's time to wake up joanna, peace.
(05:09:53) lonny: ill tell you whats depressing dude,when i launch outwars by myself and fly around anub and no one is there so i just shoot shit and toss mines.......thats fuckin depressing.....lolomg I couldn't stop laughing when he said that. still it is depressing when there are kids like me who stay around all night and play video games and waste away infront a computer screen all night. I don't waste away and play video games anymore, I just sit on the computer and try to learn new things, programs, languages or develope my art skills. I just hope that eventually it will all add up to something and that I won't get hit by a car tommorow and know that my pretty much my entire life was wasted in virtual reality. I would have wished I would have done the right thing, spent time with loved ones and done the things I was too afraid to do.
(05:10:08) chris: lmfaoooo
what can I do now? can I leave the computer world forever and say that I only wasted a bit of my life on here, I can get past this and enjoy the rest of my life, don't come on the computer as much but don't just throw away the 4-5 years you've put into it already or don't change at all and hope that I can be happy with the life that I've chosen in the end?
I don't know what I will choose in the end but this is something I definatly need to think about because it is really upsetting me thinking of all this time I've wasted I could have been doing bigger and better things. anyways it's time to wake up joanna, peace.
